Surviving Cancer

So over the weekend I was given my treatment plan. It was explained by a weekend physician’s assistant, and apparently, we were given some false information. I will not, in fact, be going home this week as mentioned. I will most definitely be in the hospital for a minimum of 2-3 weeks. The chemo I am on is very intense and I need to remain in the hospital so that I can be monitored closely.

It’s not if, but when, when it comes to needing more blood transfusions, platelet transfusions, and lumbar punctures. It only makes sense that I will already be here, especially when I will be in such a fragile state. My immune system is being wiped out by chemo, and I may start experiencing other side effects from chemo within the next week.

The toughest part about all of this is, not seeing me kids. They don’t understand why mommy can’t come home. It has been so hard, and it’s only been a week. The love a mother has for her children is unexplainable, and I cannot wait for the day where I can hug them, embrace them, kiss them, snuggle them, and believe me, I am never letting go again.

So far, after my two chemo infusions I have just been tired. I’m also probably tired from being interrupted all night long for things like vitals and blood draws, and the fact that the hospital is boring, and I don’t have energy to get out of my bed most days for more than just a couple minutes at a time.

The check-ins, prayers, and uplifting messages from people have meant so much to me. I could not do this without all of you. I need support, my husband needs support, my kids need support, my family needs support. I appreciate everyone’s willingness to help in any way they feel compelled. Thank you and love to you all.

The fight continues.